20 Things that You Should be Grateful For - untuk Fatur

Today is the 20th 5th of July for Fatur.


And here are 20 things you should be grateful for:

1. Allah SWT, the one who gives you LIFE.
2. Ibu, the one who loves you more than anyone and take care of you more than you realize.
3. Ayah, the one who makes you who you are now.
4. Papah, the one who gives you such an insight.
5. Kung dan Uti, the ones who always make you a priority and their most loved grandchildren. The ones who take care of you since you were kid until now.
6. Salsa dan Faza, the ones who somehow reflect you and admire you without you knowing. The ones who make home warmer (even though sometimes you find them annoying, they are still in any way fulfill your energy)
7. UI, one thing you should be grateful for because not everyone could feel being in your position now. Moreover, you can successfully survive the first 4 semesters, and 4 more (let us hope its just 3,5) to come, aamiin.
8. Friends, the ones to whom you can rely on, be grateful for the easiness you feel in adapting to any environment so that you successfully make so many good friends who bring positivity to you. (I am the one who should be grateful that you still and will always be the wise one who keep in the right track).
9. All the facilities you have, you know why you should be grateful. You already have what you need for now.
10. The mind and way of thinking that you have. I could tell that there are bunch of people (especially our friends) who admire your thought.
11. The opportunity that you can achieve in your career life; improve your skills, such as by being the leader at any good events. (BAZKOOOOM!)
12. Many good and bad things that you already experienced since you were kid😧! that in any way make you stronger and wiser than others.
13. Healthiness you feel, you are rarely feeling sick. (Except sariawan!!!!😢)
14. The positive targets that you already set which make you feel motivated.
15. Places that you have visited, though it is not many yet, but you should still be grateful that you can visited those places (many more to visit with me, aamiin)
16. Any prayers that is sent to you from your surroundings.
17. 5 Juli 1997, tiny little Fatur was born healthily.
18. 18 Januari 2013, we should be grateful that you bravely say that 'thing'.😉
19. Rinanda Maulida Johan, you know why.
20. Oh, one more. You are 20 yet you are way more cooler than any other guys😝😝😝



Happy Birthday, Muhammad Hadafi Faturrahman❤️

Simple.

 Rinanda Maulida Johan

"She is a Simple Girl, but far too Complex to define. Something that very few would know how to love." - Becca Lee

 HI! this is super awkward, but why would I wrote my name on this post? Obviously, it wasn't me who wrote this down, and yes, actually this time I am the one she called Him. (LOL! maybe I hacked in to Her blog, but she wouldn't mind, I suppose...)

Okay, *inhale-exhale* I noticed that she mentioned my name before, so let's catching up quickly. I reckon my life is, subjectively, complex more than some people with ups and downs that I barely managed to whistand. For me, as an Engineer AAMIIN!!! complexity is somehow very interesting, those numbers and equations are a never ending challenges.  But those are not the point isn't it? 

Yes, those are not the point why I wrote this down on Her Blog. As my life goes on, I realise that simplicity is the most complex thing to learn. From this moment, I may wrote something you would consider as exaggerating, but let's assume that the Quote earlier made me done it. She, as I mention earlier in this post, the one who changed my point of view of a true beauty, trust, and most importantly being loved. 

"For it would take an extraordinary soul, tainted and etched with loving scars, to truly embrace the duality of her being - the beautiful tragedy of her tarnished innocence." - Becca Lee

 Just by being with her makes me feel alive, I am so excited to see her. Those little things (and big things that can't be describe by words either) are something I would never exchange for anything in this world. But, then again, is this the point of this post? And the answer is.....Nope, it isn't!

HMM cukup deh pake Bahasa Inggrisnya HAHAHA kehabisan kata-kata sih sebenernya, ya mau gimana lagi, pertama kalinya nge-Blog loh! *cheers* dan inti dari post ini adalah dan selalu Rinanda Maulida Johan xoxoxo HEHEHE bagi kalian yang penasaran kenapa gue suka dan sayang banget sama Uli, ya bisalah dapet beberapa dari post ini! (fyi, this content may have subjectivism but honestly it's the truth I felt about Her!)

Mulai dari mana ya ini..... Mungkin setiap laki-laki beda pandangan mengenai perempuan, ada yang suka ini dan yang suka itu, kalau gue sukanya ya Uli HAHAHA apasih! Tapi bener deh, pertama kali gue liat Uli itu pas mau LDKS di 68 dan gue langsung suka sama dia! (actually, she later confess that she already know and admire me!) menurut gue, logikanya adalah laki-laki suka sama perempuan awalnya pasti karena fisiknya, dan iya bener gue suka Uli (walaupun masih banyak lagi tapi ini versi pendeknya ya!):

1. karena fisik dan penampilan Uli. Dari kelas gue yang IC dibawah, susah banget ngeliat dia pada awalnya tapi gimana ya gue pengen banget ngeliat dia, sering banget gue sok-sok ke suatu tempat yang ada dia cuma untuk ngomong "hai rin..." wkakwkakka super awkward, but I love those butterflies though! *not exactly butterflies* 

2. karena sifat dan pemikirannya. Yup! ini lah yang gue katakan diatas sebagai hal yang mengubah banyak hal dalam hidup gue. Dari yang ngga banget ke oke banget deh HEHE tapi serius, gue merasakan semua jadi lebih baik dan teman-teman gue pun berkata demikian

3. karena dia adalah uli yang selalu simple. Akhirnya ya! ini sih yang buat gue selalu senyum dan heran sendiri. Hmm sorry for comparing, but she's totally out-cool anyone with this! kenapa? karena......banyak deh! tapi dia beda, dia bener-bener beda dari kebanyakan orang yang gue temuin, dia selalu seperti ini dan gue harap selalu seperti ini

"Knowledge that warmed her heart and contented her spirit. For to be loved by many is a superficial pleasure, but to be loved by just one for the true essence of her being..." - Becca Lee

17th January 2013

Di hari ini, 4 tahun lalu, gue yang telah merencanakan semuanya untuk nembak Uli pun akhirnya melakukan hal tersebut. No need to tell you all the stories, but she didn't say yes at first! dia bilang "gue butuh waktu buat pikirin dulu ya..." rasanya gabisa dijelaskan deh, intinya gue pengen tau apasih pertimbangan dia, apasih yang dipikirin dia, dan kenapa dia gabisa langsung bilang iya? akhirnya dia pulang sama kakaknya ke rumah dan gue pun gabisa pulang karena mikirin ini tapi mau gimana lagi, apa dia bakal lama ya mikirnya atau blablabla banyak kemungkinan deh yang gue pikirin.

Tapi akhirnya, malam itu pun gue ngerasa gue butuh banget nih kepastian, karena gue emang kepo sih orangnya dan gabisa banget dikasih ketidakpastian gitu hehehe lama banget deh gue telfonan sama Uli, ngomongin ini itu dan sebagainya kemana-mana. (Uli cuma bisa bawel ditelfon kalo sama gue loh!)

18th January 2013

Akhirnya, setelah melewati semua butterflies yang ada saat gue telfon dia, gue coba tanya lagi kepastian dari pertanyaan gue tadi sore di sekolah. Dan ini lah yang dia bilang "hmmm...........................................................iya!" HAHAHA nyebelin kan? hmmm-nya beneran lama loh, dan gue sempet hopeless tapi gue langsung teriak-teriak seneng dan ga percaya sampe dia bilang "kenapa ga percaya? iya beneran!" lucu banget deh kalau diinget semuanya:")

Today, 18th January 2017

YEAY! kembali ke hari ini, ke tanggal ini lagi, dan masih sama Uli HEHEHE seneng banget-banget deh sama semua hal yang sudah dilewatin. "4 tahun bukan waktu yang sebentar Tur..." itu yang Uli bilang belakangan ini ke gue, and she's right! gue hampir gabisa ketemu Uli kapan pun gue mau karena mau kuliah di Bandung, tapi keterimanya di Depok, sebelahan lagi Fakultasnya! dia pernah bilang "aku insecure karena gitu..." *suaranya menghilang* terus pas ditanya apa eh dia selalu bilang "ngga kok bukan apa-apa". Gue tau kok apa yang dia takutin, apa yang dia rasain saat itu Uli bilang tapi setelah 3 semester ini gue malah selalu samperin dia kalau ada waktu kosong (dan gue memang mencari waktu kosong dan mengosongkan waktu), main dan hunting makanan sama dia, dan banyak banget hal-hal seru yang gue lakuin sama Uli!!! I AM SO GRATEFUL and looking forward for the upcoming years I would spent with Her:")

Him.

"There is only one happiness in this life, to love and be loved."  - George Sand

Hi, Blogwalkers!
Sooo it's been a long time since my last post and thank God I finally have time (a lot of time, actually)

Uhm... As George Sand said on the quote above, despite many problems that I have in my life, I still have many reasons to be happy. And (I think) the main reason is that I have someone. (hmm okay, this someone is sooo *cough* special).

Just a friendly reminder, this post will be a bit....mawkish, so forgive me first before you read this post and mock at me at the end of this post.

Tbh I'm actually not a type of girl that really giving a shit with what they called 'lovelife'. I used to hardly understood how is that feeling to be loved. And I dont even know how to answer an "Are you in love?" question.................until I found him.

Two years and four months ago, in the middle of my boring daily school life, I met him. And I never have a thought that I would fall so hard for him at that time. But God had set this up. We accidentally became a teammate in a school event, we talked, we shared stories, and we ended up loving each others. Since then, he became the thoughts I couldn't erase at 1 am (hehehe, iya iya maaf ya tur kalau merasa pernah denger kata-kata ini :p). And never once in my life I regret those moments.

Okay here are the details. As you know that I've been writing about him on my recent posts (hehehe, fyi sebenernya awalnya cuma iseng expressing happiness, tapi ternyata dia baca! Yasudah jadi minta posting lebih banyak deh. Dan kebetulan baru ada waktu sekarang hehehe)
Hmm...I dont even know how to start this... Terlalu banyak yang bisa diceritain sampe mungkin bisa menghasilkan satu buku ((kata dia di masa yang akan datang gue pasti bisa buat buku yang isinya tentang kita hahaha)). 

Oh okay, gue jadi keinget kejadian beberapa minggu yang lalu. 25 April 2015. We spent a full day and we were having a (very) good times. Sebelum gue diantar pulang, kita jemput adeknya Fatur dulu ke Bogor karena akan ada acara keluarga. Setelah jemput Salsa, gue pulang. Sampe rumah langsung.....................sepi...atau kesepian ya hahaha geli. Pokoknya hari itu ayah sama bunda nggak pulang ke rumah dan gue lagi marahan sama adek gue hahaha alay banget ya :( ditambah lagi gue inget kalau besok paginya ada tryout di BTA, sedihnya :( yasudah setelah bersih bersih, gue istirahat deh karena gamau kesiangan BTAnya ((fyi, I have a little problem of waking up earlier in the morning and it is worsened by the fact that I have to wake myself up since my parents weren't home and I couldnt rely on my sister lol)).

Besok paginya gue bangun jam setengah 6 lewat. Baru duduk tiba-tiba Fatur nelfon buat bangunin. Terus yaudah dia nyuruh gue siap-siap dan gue pikir paling dia bakal tidur lagi. Ternyata setelah mandi gue ditelfon lagi;

"Halo...i... (pake nada yang sangat khas :p) kamu lagi ngapain?"
"Baru selesai mandi nih"
"Oh ok, jangan lupa sarapan ya"
"Hmm nanti aja deeh, gaada makanan dan gabakal sempet kalau bikin dulu"
*sigh* "Yaudah yaudah, mau berangkat jam berapa?"
"Sebentar lagi berangkat nihh, bentar yaa tuur nanti aku kabarin lagi"
"Okedeh hati-hati ya Li"

Lalu gue lanjut siap-siap, terus udah siap tinggal pergi, he called again cuma buat bilang "Li jangan lupa bawa minum" dan gue iyain aja deh tanpa bawa minum beneran karena mager harus isi minum lagi HAHA. Setelah itu gue langsung turun. Pas gue keluar dari lobby, udah mengarah mau keluar tiba-tiba ada bayangan cahaya kaya lampu mobil gitu ngedim gue dari belakang. Terus karena gue kepo, gue nengok ke belakang, dan....................

It was him.

Terus karena gue kaget dan ga percaya yaudah gue malah lanjut jalan HAHA nyebelin. Tapi akhirnya balik dan langsung nyamperin sih. Dan kalimat pertama yang gue ucapkan adalah, "Ih kamu ngapaiiiiin?" dan itu berhasil buat dia merengut HAHAHA lucu abis. Mana dia masih pake baju sama celana tidur cuma ditambah jaket :p. Yaudah karena gue merasa bersalah gue minta maaf, tapi setelahnya malah tetep nanya, "kamu ngapain siih?" HAHAHA. Terus dia jelasin deh kalau pas dia bangunin gue itu dia dia udah berangkat dan emang sengaja gamau ngasih tau gue. Dan yang paling gue bingung adalah kenapa timingnya sangat pas, disaat gue turun dan keluar, pas banget dia sampe. Terus dia bilang, "yaa makanya aku telfonin kamu terus, mastiin kamu belum berangkat" dan saat gue tanya alasan dia dateng tiba-tiba dia jawab, "biarin, orang aku kangen kamu juga, dan daripada kamu berangkat sendirian naik kendaraan umum mending sama aku" uuuu that's so sweet of him :p

Selama perjalanan kita ngobrol deh. Dia sempet marah karena gue ga nurut ga bawa minum, "tuhkan ketauan deh kamu ga nurut kalau gaada aku. Bohong bilangnya iya mau bawa minum" HAHA galak ya tapi malah lucu bukan serem :p. Yaudah deh perjalanannya diakhiri dengan paksaan dia kepada gue untuk beli minum sebelum mulai tryout hahaha. Setelah gue berterima kasih banget, dia pulang dan kali ini beneran tidur lagi pas sampe rumah.

Hmm, well.... that's him. Aduh kalau gue ceritain yang lain-lainnya nanti pada minta kenalan lagi?! AHHAHAHA gadeng gabakal boleh. HAhhahahha gadeng bercanda lagian ni blog udah gaada yang baca lagi kecuali seseorang. :p

Gue juga seneng banget dia selalu ngertiin gue walaupun gue orangnya sangat tertutup bisa dibilang. Gue ga terbiasa cerita dan berbagi perasaan gue ke orang lain. Sekalinya gitu ya nulis diblog, itu pun cuma kalimat-kalimat ga jelas yang orang lain juga gaakan ngerti masalahnya. Sampe akhirnya, beberapa minggu yang lalu juga gue ceritain semuanya tentang gue selama dua tahun terakhir yang ga satupun tau selain keluarga gue sendiri. Ke dia pun gue selalu bohong nutupin semuanya hahaha. And the thing I like from him is that he will just give his shoulder for me to cry on, and give me a hug without talking too much. Setelah gue agak tenangan baru deh dia berpendapat dan memberi kata-kata positif. 

Sehari setellahnya, gue sedang sendiri (lagi) di rumah. Dia lagi BTA dan baru selesai maghrib, selesai BTA, dia telfon gue;

"Halo....i....(with his special accent of course :p) ini aku udah selesai ya"
"Oh iya Alhamdulillah sudah selesai"
"Aku juga udah makan nasi goreng depan BTA barusan, terus sekarang mau pulang ya"
"Ooh okedeh hati-hati pulangnya ya tur"
"Iyaa, kamu lagi ngapainn? Masih sendirian?"
"Iyaa. Lagi mau makan roti hehe"
"Kok makan roti? Nggak makan nasi?"
"Nantii tunggu bunda pulang, sekarang gaada makanan tur"
"IIIH kok gitu sih? Aku kesana nih"
"Ngapainnn?"
"Biar kamu makan. Ya?"
"Nggak usaaah hahaha sebentar lagi juga paling ka ambun sama alsa pulang"
"Ih biarin pokoknya aku kesana ya"
"Iya..iya.."
"Lii beneran ini aku muter ya lewat jalan yang dibawah terowongan itu"
"Iya..iya..hahaha" (Idk I cant stand myself from laughing at that time)
"Ih serius lii, yaudah tunggu ya"

Lalu setengah jam kemudian dia sampe. Karena cuacanya lagi berangin banget, dia langsung nyuruh gue pake jaketnya dia dan matiin acnya. Kita langsung makan deh di daerah Tebet. (dia makan lagi fyi, katanya tadi belum kenyang makannya hahaha). Lalu setelah makan kita pulang. He told me to keep wearing his jacket and bring it with me, I resisted and said no, he kept insisted me, I kept refused until he sighed heavily and said, "okay.." hahahaha gue nyebelin banget ya emang gue tau kok, thats why I always feel grateful for having him in my life. :p 

Dan dia selalu bisa menenangkan gue. Tanggal 9 kmarin, pengumuman snmptn jam lima sore. Paginya gue sama dia masih BTA dulu, nah setelah dari BTA kita emang udah merencanakan mau pergi, yaa refreshing aja sih sebenernya (kalau alasan gue adalah biar gue ga kepikiran pengumuman terus, karna kalau udah sama dia kan lupa semuanya :p). Lalu kita menuju GI. Solat, makan, liat-liat sepatu, terus menemani dia yang sangat BM buat ngopi, dari kemarin kemarin pengen ngopi mulu hahaha. Terus yaudah kita ngobrol banyak hal, as always. Setelah beberapa lama ngopi ngopi, dia ngajak gue untuk belajar di Freedom Public Library. Yaudah gue mau lah since no one home lol. Sampe Freedom, kita langsung belajar, bahas TO SIMAK terbaru. Dia ngajarin gue banyak tentang matematika, sedangkan gue ngasih tau hal-hal yang gue tau (yang nggak seberapa) hahaha ya saling berbagi ilmu lah intinya. Satu lagi hal yang gue suka dari dia adalah, kalau ngajarin enak sampe gue bener-bener ngerti. 

Nggak sadar pas kita lagi seru belajar, lampu-lampu dan AC perpusnya udah mulai dimatiin (hari Sabtu Minggu tutupnya jam 5). Terus yaudah kita solat ashar kan, dan sumpah gue bener-bener deg-degan parah karna udah jam 5 dan gue keinget pengumuman lagi. Tapi yaudah gue berusaha ga panik wkwkwk. Setelah solat, kita pulang. Di perjalanan pulang gue gelisah banget sumpah wakakak sampe gue suruh dia untuk cerita biar gue ga kepikiran undangan wkwkwk. Terus pokoknya akhirnya gue bilang "Tur aku mau liat pengumumannya sekarang aja, jadi kalau aku sedih ada kamu yang nemenin" hahaha terus yaudah untungnya dia masih tenang-tenang aja:") yaudah akhirnya dia yang liatin pengumuman gue. Dan langsung gue terharu, teriak-teriak, dan peluk dia. Ah pokoknya dia paling bisa deh menenangkan gue, mensupport gue, menyemangati gue. 

“That's when you know for sure somebody loves you. They figure out what you need and they give it to you -- without you asking.”

― Adriana Trigiani, Very Valentine 

Yaa sebenernya hal-hal kecil seperti itu yang membuat gue selalu ngerasa...............ah seneng banget lah pokoknya. Seperti post gue sebelumnya. Eh tapi jangan salah, bukan hanya little things, huge thingsnya juga sangat banyak dan priceless, tapi yang itu biar disimpen sendiri aja deeeeh, nanti pada iri lagi hahaha :p. Dan mungkin orang lain baca ini mikirnya "apaandah lebay banget gitu doang", but seriously, you probably would express this way more excited if this really happened to you. (WAIT, not with him ofc :p).

He is the one who always make me feel so special. He is the one who always made me his priority. He is the one who would do anything just to make me happy. He is the one who knows everything, every sigle thing about me. He is the one who knows how to treat me, what to do, and what to say. He is the one who always keep his promise on me. He is the one who is soooo sweet, so kind, so gorgeus, so smart, so patient, so understanding, so funny, so adorable, so lovely that I cant never imagined how could he has those personality?!

Aaaaah tuhkan kalau ngomongin dia, gaakan ada habisnya deh................rasanya masih banyak yang mau diungkapkan tapi ya apa daya ini udah sore dan gue belum mandi seharian. (Jangan ilfeel please tur :p). Tunggu post-post selanjutnya yaa, berhubung pengangguran jadi insha Allah bakal produktif nih blog hahaha.
Haaaah pokoknya semangat ya, Tur! Aku yakiiiin banget deh kamu pasti bisa :) lagian apa sih yang Fatur ngga bisa? :p aku selalu doain kamu pokoknya semoga kamu bisa capai semua yang udah dicita-citakan selama ini :) I love you xx

“The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever”

― Nicholas Sparks